_Chapter 11:
Destroy & Truth

The next morning Utena was up and early, the sun was shining brightly. People walking up and down the streets on their way to work, childern on their way to school. Sherlock comes into the living space "Morning Himemiya." Utena turned around from looking out the window "Morning Sherlock." Sherlock always saw Utena with make up on showing her beauty but the morning showed a different side to her Utena didn't have any make-up on her natural beauty found a place in Sherlock's lonely heart, the sun shined down 221b was full of light. Sherlock didn't see the moonlight shadow he always see in Utena instead he saw a lonely fallen angel crying for love like himself. "Morning!" John standing by the door with a smile on his face Sherlock asked John "Where's Sia? I thought she would of gotten up by now." John went up stairs to see if Sia was awake he knocked on her door "Sia, you awake? Sherlock and Utena are waiting for you, we all are. It's not like you to stay in your room at this time." Inside Sia's room the curtains were closed, the room was dark few specs of sunlight shone into the room, Sia was sitting on her bed all ready dressed for the day but she was sad thinking about what she saw last night she had a flashback of Sherlock holding Utena, the way Sherlock holds her. "Sia, if you sick then that's fine but it would be nice to see you join us for breakfast." John said after no reply John made his way down stairs to rejoin with Sherlock and Utena.

Sia thought to herself "If I pretend to be asleep then I won't be bothered that much. I think it's best for me to stay here then nothing bad will happen, I don't want to hurt any one I don't want to go downstairs and burst out saying I saw Sherlock and her together last night holding each other I don't want to hurt John he's a dear friend to me and Sherlock. But as soon as John and Utena have gone I'll talk to him I'll talk to Sherlock; me and him can talk about anything, me and him shared so much and always saying to each other 'It's our little secret' Utena will soon get bored of John she'll leave him soon move on to some one else better. Yeah me and Sherlock can talk about anything; whatever bothers us whatever needs to be said we share. Just me and Sherlock. But I still can't help but think there's something wrong with that girl Miss Utena Himemiya, she just won't get out my head; her perfectly pink and purple flowing hair her beautifully made up face why wouldn't Sherlock want her. Her eyes... her deep crystal eyes perfectly blue." Just then Sia rised her head up she began to think "Her eyes, her eyes were cold even with a warm smile I couldn't mistake a cold look her pupils widen when she looked towards Sherlock. She doesn't have any intrest in John.. it's Sherlock she wants." Just then Sia heard Sherlock's voice "Sia are you even going to come out of there?" Sherlock knocked on the door a few times "Sia come on... oh for god sake you still can't be asleep. You know me really well so I know your awake." Sia kept really quiet "Sia listen breakfast isn't going to stay out for long in about 10 minutes Mrs Hutson will be cleaning up the dishes even though it's your turn today." Sia heard Sherlocks footsteps making their way down the stairs. Sia thought to herself "I won't let her get to me that easily, I can't well.... like I said to myself before she'll get bored of John."

2 hours later John takes Utena out, Mrs Hutson left 10 minutes after leaving Sia in her room and Sherlock in his flat. Them two alone in 221b. Sia finally emerage from her room still feeling sad but she remained strong, she heads down the stairs she entered into Sherlock's flat she went into his kitchen Sherlock was doing some forensic science samples he brought back from the lab "Morning Sia well it's almost afternoon. You missed breakfast." Said Sherlock, Sia couldn't help but see him holding Utena, Sia suddenly asked "Sherlock, what is the relationship between you and Utena?" Sherlock rised his head he suddenly looked at Sia as if she did something wrong he replied harshly back "Nothing, Utena and I were friends back in school. She was always a popular girl with her amazing beauty and hair. The teachers contanstly told her to change the colour but she refused, she always found time for me we would go and climb up a tree and sit there watching people go by. But when she was 13 years old she was pulled out of school. I never saw her again until last night. Now if I'm not mistaken you could be jelous of her. Afarid she might take me away because you saw me holding her last night, yes I did notice I saw you in the mirror with a shocked face and for your information I was catching up with her and she needed something she couldn't have for a long time. Does that answer your question?" Sia never seem him so defensive about any one then Sia felt destroyed by him she ran back up to her room not caring if Sherlock saw her filling up with tears in her eyes or not.

"SLAM" The door shuts. Sia felt so helpless and destroyed her hair covering her face, tears falling. She turns to the door she slowly falls to the floor her hands sliding down Sia brusted out "Why, why be so defensive about her... all I ever wanted to know was what it was like between you and her but no now I can see you two clearly like each other... Sherlock why destroy me like this? Why place this burden on me? This isn't fair, this isn't fair at all... Do you really like her that much, so much you'll defend her I just wanted a calm answer from you but no you always have to show off your signs of deduction. Sherlock why hurt me, you always do this you push everyone away. You've never cared about any one and if you did eventually you'll push them away. I've always looked up to you I've always wanted to think like you, I want to be by your side... But you've just pushed me away like you did with everyone else. No one can ever get near you because you keep on pushing until they never see you again and then you want them back but by then it's too late. That's why you closed yourself to even show your true emotions. Sherlock... why?" Sia continued to cry, outside of Sia's room Sherlock was leaning against her bedroom door. Sherlock quietly made his way down the stairs left Sia to cry alone.

A few hours later Utena returns Sherlock was sitting in his armchair reading a book Sherlock looks up and see's Utena "Where's John?" Asked Sherlock, Utena replied "He got called some where, he didn't say where he was going so he told me to come back here." Utena smiled. Sherlock puts his book on the side then he walks over to his desk "Come here Utena." Utena walks over to Sherlock, Sia was peeping down the stairs she could clearly see Sherlock and Utena close to each other. "Utena a little closer" Softly said Sherlock, Utena was close to Sherlocks chest; Sherlock slide his hands from Utena's shoulders to her hips. Sia could see Sherlock was looking deep into Utena's eyes. Sia could feel the tension was strange, she felt she shouldn't be seeing Sherlock and Utena so close together. The sun was shining brightly into 221b, Sia could see Sherlock and Utena were two angels who just found love. Sherlock gave Utena a deep kiss much to Sia's shock. Sia thought "That's who you've always wanted Sherlock. You wanted her." After the kiss Sia felt her heart was broken a thousand times. She saw both Sherlock and Utena smiling at each other "How far do you want to take this Sherlock? Want me to put you over that desk and make you beg for mercy." Utena gently said, Sherlock replied "I've never beg for mercy in my life." Utena smiled and gently said "Would you like me to try?" Sia felt she couldn't see any more so she quietly made her way back to her room.

                                                                                              Sia's Blog:

So the next day John takes Utena out and Mrs Hutson is out too so finally I could get some time alone with Sherlock, I couldn't help but keep thinking about last night. If only I could get it out of my head him just holding her the way he holds me. So I came out with it and asked Sherlock "Sherlock, what is the relationship between you and Utena?" Sherlock was doing some forensic science when he rised his head and looked at me like I've done something wrong he just replied "Nothing, Utena and I were friends back in school. She was always a popular girl with her amazing beauty and hair. The teachers contanstly told her to change the colour but she refused, she always found time for me we would go and climb up a tree and sit there watching people go by. But when she was 13 years old she was pulled out of school. I never saw her again until last night. Now if I'm not mistaken you could be jelous of her. Afarid she might take me away because you saw me holding her, well for your information I was catching up with her and she needed something she couldn't have for a long time. Does that answer your question?"

I never seen him so defensive before. I still couldn't help but think there was something wrong about Utena, I've never seen any one with such a cold look in their eyes such as her. I don't like the way things are going here... So I just ran away from with tears in my eyes, I dunno if he saw me and for that matter I really don't think i cared at that moment if he did...God I regret that evening now... Maybe I should be alone.. For alone is what protects people... Alone is all i have as I have lost my light now...I have lost Sherlock, from the look in his eyes I got I could tell...

I have lost him..

...Sia....

-Update on my blog -

Here's something else I thought I could update on. I can't believe I saw them kiss. KISSING! Well he kissed her but I could see it she was waiting she knew he was going to kiss her... how can she live with herself. She's dating John and yet she really wants Sherlock. And Sherlock looks into her eyes I know he loves her... God I just can't believe how she can be dishonest.... How can she date John but really love Sherlock... I'm not making sense. The shock is still going round me and I just can't deal with it right now.. I'm sorry.... Sherlock why?

- End of Chapter -
 


Comments




Leave a Reply